This is the study of male bonding. I was born in a female body and raised as a woman. Yes, my own natural instincts afforded me a beginning. Just enough male instinct for transitioning to make sense. Body language, intimacy and the silence that forms the masculine relationship are behaviors I've studied for invisible survival. Some of male behavior is nature, much of it is how men are raised; taught that masculinity is founded in lack of intimacy. Silence is an integral part of communication between men, perhaps to insure a level of intimacy isn’t verbalized. By creating these moments, not only am I synthetically filling the void from my past, I am experiencing the intimate male bond that I crave. These moments are missing pieces in my quest to fully identify with and understand the men in my life.